There's very few things in this life I can completely and totally submerge myself in and identify with, music is one of them. I almost forgot about this song and how much I adore it. It seemed appropriate to post here after the theme of my last few posts.
The anniversary of Adam's DOD is quickly approaching but this year I'm not feeling that overwhelming pain and anguish I've felt over the past few years. Call me crazy be I totally think this tattoo of mine has changed my life and has healed my heart, even if just a little bit. <3
Monday, June 6, 2011
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Let It Begin With Me...
Tattoo is about 2 weeks old, thank God the itching is over....it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be but still annoying nonetheless. It's funny, this time of year I usually get really sad and depressed since Adam's DOD is 6/10 but its different now. I honestly didn't even realize the date was approaching until I actually looked at the calendar today. When I did look and realized the date was approaching I wasn't sad or upset. I finally found myself at peace. Not saying I don't miss him and wish he were still here but some how those 23 stars on my foot make me feel so much closer to him, like my best friend is with me always, no matter what. My heart is truly happy and at peace. It's amazing what a little ink can do for the soul <3.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Finished Tattoo
I wanted to post a quick picture of my tattoo after it has been completed. I love it more than words can say and the pain is so worth the ever lasting effect it has had on me already. <3
Today is the Day
Today is a very important day in my life, I would argue it is almost as important as my Wedding day, almost. Today is the day I get my first tattoo! Why on earth would that be almost as important as my Wedding you ask? Well my tattoo is very special, my tattoo is my way of paying homage to my BFF Adam who died almost 4 years ago, (I've written about him on here many times). And before you ask, no its not a tattoo with his name in it or anything ridiculous like that. It's a tattoo that has meaning to me and to the rest of you will just look like some cool artwork and designs.
This tattoo has been a long time coming and I've finally decided on the perfect design to make it exactly what I want. I'm getting 23 stars and diamonds tattooed on the top of my right foot. One Big star surrounded by the 22 other stars and diamonds in various sizes. The reason for this is my BFF Adam and I are both huge, HUGE Beatles fans and the tattoo is a loose interpretation of Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds. The part that really ties in Adam will be the 22 stars and diamonds. There will be 3 different size Stars and 1 size diamonds. The stars and diamonds will be of specific number, those numbers will represent Adam's birthday (3/6/76). I wanted the numbers to represent his DOB and not his DOD because I want celebrate his life and not mourn his death. His DOD is hard enough for me without dedicating a tattoo to it.
It's taken me almost 3 months and 2 different tattoo artists to get a tattoo appointment that has not been cancelled or changed. Maybe it was Adam's way of telling me that other artist wasn't right for me, or it wasn't the right time. I truly feel today is the perfect day to finally pay homage to my BFF who I miss more and more as the days pass and will forever be in my heart.
People ask, are you sure you want to live the rest of your life with that tattoo? And I respond, I can't believe I've lived this much of my life without it.
This tattoo has been a long time coming and I've finally decided on the perfect design to make it exactly what I want. I'm getting 23 stars and diamonds tattooed on the top of my right foot. One Big star surrounded by the 22 other stars and diamonds in various sizes. The reason for this is my BFF Adam and I are both huge, HUGE Beatles fans and the tattoo is a loose interpretation of Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds. The part that really ties in Adam will be the 22 stars and diamonds. There will be 3 different size Stars and 1 size diamonds. The stars and diamonds will be of specific number, those numbers will represent Adam's birthday (3/6/76). I wanted the numbers to represent his DOB and not his DOD because I want celebrate his life and not mourn his death. His DOD is hard enough for me without dedicating a tattoo to it.
It's taken me almost 3 months and 2 different tattoo artists to get a tattoo appointment that has not been cancelled or changed. Maybe it was Adam's way of telling me that other artist wasn't right for me, or it wasn't the right time. I truly feel today is the perfect day to finally pay homage to my BFF who I miss more and more as the days pass and will forever be in my heart.
People ask, are you sure you want to live the rest of your life with that tattoo? And I respond, I can't believe I've lived this much of my life without it.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Sympathy Pains
I have a friend who's going through some really rough times lately. They just can't see to catch a break in anything they do and as of late I can't stop thinking about them and their situation and every time I do I want to cry. It's heartbreaking to me to see one of my good friends go through all of this and I can't a thing to fix it. I feel helpless and useless and wish there was so much more I could do to help them through this. I just hope they find the strength and courage to continue on and overcome this hardship. <3
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
BIRTHDAY WEEK!!!!! :-D
The Husby and I have started a new tradition. We started celebrating birthday week. For his birthday he had home cooked meals every night of his favorite foods, complete control of the TV to watch whatever he wanted or play video games and I did his chores that week.
This week is my birthday week and instead of cooking me dinner every night, the Husby has agreed to take me out to eat!!! :-) Day one of birthday week we went to a little Mom and Pop's Italian Restaurant. It was pretty good, I had linguine with alfredo sauce, scallops, shrimp and crab meat. The Husby had broiled shrimp & scallops with pasta. Not bad for a little Mom and Pop's joint.
Day two of birthday week we went to a little Mexican restaurant near the house. It was fantastic!!! They had the best homemade pico de gallo and pita chips. SO GOOD!! I had a chicken and cheese gordita with Mexican rice and the Husby had steak and shrimp fajitas. That will definitely be a place we frequent. :-)
Tonight is day three of birthday week and I'm not entirely sure where we're going for dinner yet. We got a little bit of snow so we'll see how the roads are later. Tonight just might be a pizza night but I won't complain, as long as I don't have to cook I don't care.
It's also nice not having to worry about doing stuff around the house. The Husby is doing all my chores since it's my birthday week. Lucky for him there's no dishes since I'm not cooking all week. ;-) The week will be ended nicely with a day trip to NYC to see the Lion King on Broadway. The Husby, the awesome man that he is, got me tickets to 2 Broadway shows for my wedding gift and the last show is this weekend! I'm so stinking excited! I had never seen a Broadway show before we went to see Wicked in November. We will definitely be going to see shows more often now, I'm hooked. :-)
This week is my birthday week and instead of cooking me dinner every night, the Husby has agreed to take me out to eat!!! :-) Day one of birthday week we went to a little Mom and Pop's Italian Restaurant. It was pretty good, I had linguine with alfredo sauce, scallops, shrimp and crab meat. The Husby had broiled shrimp & scallops with pasta. Not bad for a little Mom and Pop's joint.
Day two of birthday week we went to a little Mexican restaurant near the house. It was fantastic!!! They had the best homemade pico de gallo and pita chips. SO GOOD!! I had a chicken and cheese gordita with Mexican rice and the Husby had steak and shrimp fajitas. That will definitely be a place we frequent. :-)
Tonight is day three of birthday week and I'm not entirely sure where we're going for dinner yet. We got a little bit of snow so we'll see how the roads are later. Tonight just might be a pizza night but I won't complain, as long as I don't have to cook I don't care.
It's also nice not having to worry about doing stuff around the house. The Husby is doing all my chores since it's my birthday week. Lucky for him there's no dishes since I'm not cooking all week. ;-) The week will be ended nicely with a day trip to NYC to see the Lion King on Broadway. The Husby, the awesome man that he is, got me tickets to 2 Broadway shows for my wedding gift and the last show is this weekend! I'm so stinking excited! I had never seen a Broadway show before we went to see Wicked in November. We will definitely be going to see shows more often now, I'm hooked. :-)
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
New Year - New Me - New Baby?
So my last update was on Black Friday as I was about to run out the door to go shopping. Well the holidays came in like a lamb and went out like a lion. The hustle and bustle of the holidays was very overwhelming this year. I don't know if it was because we were so busy with the wedding that I kinda forgot about them and they snuck up on me or what, but they were crazier than ever this year. I hate to say it but I'm actually kinda glad they are over.
I did enjoy the time I spent with my husby, it was our first official Christmas together and it was nice. He got me a super cool retro style kettle popcorn maker. Its counter top sized and super cute, I love it. As far as the rest of the Holiday went, I could have done with out it. I just wasn't in the holiday spirit this year and I just didn't give a hoot.
It's all over now and it's 2011! Woo hoo! :-) I have some really aggressive goals, not resolutions - goals, for 2011. I plan to make this year even better than last year. The husby and I were discussing possibly trying to start a family the beginning of next year (2012) So there are somethings I would like to accomplish before this happens. Having a baby is major life changing decision and it really sucks the life, and money, out of you. My goals for 2011 are to make my life more baby friendly :-). I need to be more organized; there needs to be less clutter in my life and in my house. I need to be in better shape; I know it sounds silly to lose weight to get pregnant but I want to be healthy when I get pregnant and right now I'm just not. I need to know what I want to do with my career; I'm forever job searching and considering other career paths. I need to decide what my career is going to be, whether I stay here, become a party/wedding planner, a real estate agent or a super hero - I need to decide what I want to do so I can start working towards that goal. I need to spend less and save more; I am the WORST person ever with money, if I have it I spend it. I need to work on that so we have money to spend on the baby's needs.
This all kinda counts as being dual purpose, my 30th Birthday is next January so I really want to get my life in order so I can controlling my life instead of my life controlling me and dictating to me what I need to do on weeknights and weekends. Hopefully my new approach to things will get me on a solid path and I can follow through with all of my goals. So far I have a starting plan for each of them:
My Fitness Goal: To lose approximately 40 pounds by 1/15/12
My Fitness Goal Approach: Signed up for Myfitnesspal.com, downloaded Couch to 5k for my iPod and dowloaded some healthy recipes to try.
My Organization Goal: Organize my life and organizing my house
My Organization Goal Approach: I plan to take the house on one room at a time and give my self a reasonable amount of time to get it organized, let's say a month. I know we are really busy people and life happens so I don't think this is unreasonable. Also, I plan to put our Google Calendars to better use to keep us organized and in sync with each other.
My Career Goal: Figure out what I want to be when I grow up.
My Career Goal Approach: Research jobs to find out what I like and what I want to do, what classes/certifications are required, up front costs associated with career changing, etc.
My Financial Goal: Save my money for the baby
My Financial Goal Approach: STOP SPENDING MONEY :-), if there's two things I want I usually just buy them both. Now I'm going to try to choose between them and pick only one, or maybe even none at all. Do I really need this? Will my life end if I don't buy it?
Wow so all that looks pretty intimidating now that I wrote it down...we shall see how this goes....
I did enjoy the time I spent with my husby, it was our first official Christmas together and it was nice. He got me a super cool retro style kettle popcorn maker. Its counter top sized and super cute, I love it. As far as the rest of the Holiday went, I could have done with out it. I just wasn't in the holiday spirit this year and I just didn't give a hoot.
It's all over now and it's 2011! Woo hoo! :-) I have some really aggressive goals, not resolutions - goals, for 2011. I plan to make this year even better than last year. The husby and I were discussing possibly trying to start a family the beginning of next year (2012) So there are somethings I would like to accomplish before this happens. Having a baby is major life changing decision and it really sucks the life, and money, out of you. My goals for 2011 are to make my life more baby friendly :-). I need to be more organized; there needs to be less clutter in my life and in my house. I need to be in better shape; I know it sounds silly to lose weight to get pregnant but I want to be healthy when I get pregnant and right now I'm just not. I need to know what I want to do with my career; I'm forever job searching and considering other career paths. I need to decide what my career is going to be, whether I stay here, become a party/wedding planner, a real estate agent or a super hero - I need to decide what I want to do so I can start working towards that goal. I need to spend less and save more; I am the WORST person ever with money, if I have it I spend it. I need to work on that so we have money to spend on the baby's needs.
This all kinda counts as being dual purpose, my 30th Birthday is next January so I really want to get my life in order so I can controlling my life instead of my life controlling me and dictating to me what I need to do on weeknights and weekends. Hopefully my new approach to things will get me on a solid path and I can follow through with all of my goals. So far I have a starting plan for each of them:
My Fitness Goal: To lose approximately 40 pounds by 1/15/12
My Fitness Goal Approach: Signed up for Myfitnesspal.com, downloaded Couch to 5k for my iPod and dowloaded some healthy recipes to try.
My Organization Goal: Organize my life and organizing my house
My Organization Goal Approach: I plan to take the house on one room at a time and give my self a reasonable amount of time to get it organized, let's say a month. I know we are really busy people and life happens so I don't think this is unreasonable. Also, I plan to put our Google Calendars to better use to keep us organized and in sync with each other.
My Career Goal: Figure out what I want to be when I grow up.
My Career Goal Approach: Research jobs to find out what I like and what I want to do, what classes/certifications are required, up front costs associated with career changing, etc.
My Financial Goal: Save my money for the baby
My Financial Goal Approach: STOP SPENDING MONEY :-), if there's two things I want I usually just buy them both. Now I'm going to try to choose between them and pick only one, or maybe even none at all. Do I really need this? Will my life end if I don't buy it?
Wow so all that looks pretty intimidating now that I wrote it down...we shall see how this goes....
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